My father passed away few weeks before I got married, it was devastating. He could have been 63 years old on the 7th of this month. I still miss him after 12 years of being gone and I always wish I could have done different things with my relationship with him. This music video by Christina Aguilera always makes me cry, it always reminds me of my father and the way I handled things when he was still around. I will have to deal with this guilt that I have for the rest of my life, for not taking all the chances that I have had when he was still around.
If I knew things back then what I know now, I would have done things differently. He was always so proud of me with everything that I did but I always gave him a hard time for his drinking problem. I was always bitter towards him for not doing his best. When he suddenly passed I realized that everything he did, he did it for us, to the best of his ability. I wish I could turn back time but couldn't. I am saying this because I want other people to learn from my experience. It is very important to let your parents know that you appreciated them, while you still have time.
If your parents are still around, make time for them, reach out and tell them how much you care for them. I never got to do that for my father. I am so fortunate however that God gave me another chance to somehow do things for my father-in-law when I came here, the things that I failed to do with my own father. I feel like, it is my second chance to correct the mistake I have made and I am so happy I get to do that with my husband's father now that he needs it.